"Dear God"
Everynight before I fall asleep, I pray to you. I pray that for just one minute you will let me feel Eric's touch, just so I can remember exactly what it felt like. I pray that when I close my eyes, I will see him staring back at me, and his eyes will burn into my thoughts, so I won't have any fear about not dreaming about him. I pray that you will allow Eric to visit me when I'm fast asleep and that the words he speaks will be permanetly placed into my memory, so that when I'm lonely, I can call upon them to bring a smile to my face. I pray that you will allow him to lay beside me through the night so he can be there to sing me back to sleep if I should wake up, and so the bed won't seem so empty. I pray that, even if I don't remember it, you let us hold a conversation so he can put rest on my mind and heart. I pray that you let him see me, because to see that he is being thought of, missed, cried over and grieved for provides him with a sign of how much he was loved and how much he still is. I pray that just one last time you let me hear him speak my name and say I love you. I pray that you're allowing him to hear me when I speak to him and that you're letting him cry if need be. I pray that you're reminding him of how much he is loved and how badly I miss him. I pray that you are letting him feel the kisses I blow up to his lips everynight and that one day you will let me feel his one more time. And I pray that as you are reading this, you're letting him stand over your shoulder and read it too...I love you Eric...now and forever.
Love-
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